A brand new sister and shes just for me!!

Sydney and Sadie have taken to Scarlett beautifully!! It was truly love at first sight. Even if Sydney & Sadie don’t have a ton in common at this point. They do have a commonality with the love they have for Scarlett. When I get them in the morning, the first thing out of both of their mouths is “where is squeaks”. The love to hold Scarlett. There have been several times where Scarlett is crying in her bouncer chair, and I am unable to stop what I am doing right away. Sydney &and Sadie jump to the rescue, and console Scarlett with a song. It is the cutest thing ever. The car is not one  of Scarlett's favorite places to be, and so she cries. Sadie loves to hold her hand, and tell her it is okay. Watching Sadie become an older sister has been so cute!!We were coming home from the store, and  Sadie gets a little rambunctious, and decided to take your blanket away. Your little advocate Sydney protested immediately; “Give my baby her blanket”, to this Sadie just laughed. I reached back, and grabbed the blanket. Sadie got mad. She decided to take her frustration out on squeaks. Sadie hit Scarlett!! It was the first time. Scarlett let out the saddest little cry, and Sydney had a panic attack. Sydney informed Sadie that she was going to tell her daddy. To that Sadie broke down. Sadie felt so sad, and scared to have her daddy know what she did. After we got home I put Sadie to bed, and she said she was sorry. I told her it was okay. Sadie than started to cry, and said “daddy be mad at me” I reassured her, and said he would not. When Jeff got home I told him, and we just laughed. Sadie woke up from her nap, and Jeff went to get her. He asked if she had something to tell him, and she hung her head, and said,” I hit baby Scarlett, I sorry”!! Sadie has such a tender heart. I could not be more pleased with how smoothly Scarlett has fit into our family!!

Two to Three, and there is only 1 me!!

It is official. I have three kids!! I love them all dearly sometimes always. I wish I could sit here and discreetly brag about just how awesome I am, and how life with 3 is a breeze. Sadly this blog is to remember the good the bad, and the ugly. So I will admit my life got turned upside down. I totally had two kids down, so I thought to myself “what's one more kid”?  Poor little naive me. Life is can be a challenge. I am learning daily how to be the best mom I can be. With that, my house is rarely clean. Dishes are constantly in the sink, laundry is a dreaded task, and showering….well that’s basically non existent. There are moments when I feel like I am getting somewhere, and than a second later BAM, I am once again drowning. Things are getting much much better. The first few weeks were a struggle. Sydney watched a lot of T.V, and Sadie cried a lot. I would go to bed and toss and turn with guilt ridden thoughts. I knew I could do better, I wanted to do better. Slowly I have come to realize the power of prayer in parenting. I could not have done it without prayer. I know I am being blessed with the strength I need daily. Sydney & and Sadie are such sweet kids. They have been so patient, and have accepted Scarlett with open arms. The girls are learning to read that when I begin twitching it is a good sign to listen. Grocery shopping has become an excellent work out. I had no clue how heavy the grocery cart would be with one more. I use to get pleasant smiles, and compliments on my girls. Now I swear I can hear peoples jaws dropping, as I pass them through grocery aisles. The girls and I have learned to smile, and keep on singing Twinkle Twinkle Little Star, as if no one is watching. Through this all I have learned I am strong. I can do anything with the help of my Heavenly Father, and my amazing husband. We are so blessed. This time may be one of the hardest, but I would not change it for a thing. We are truly so blessed. I love all of my girls with all my heart, and even in my most trying moment, I can look into their eyes, and forget all the worries in the world. They are all that matter. This past week I had a doctors appointment, and Jeff and I had agreed, the night before that he would meet me in town, and take the girls home. It would work out perfectly. The day had gone way smooth, and I made sure to get all the things done so I could meet Jeff on time. As I got up to grab Sydney, and Sadie, Scarlett decided she was hungry. So I decided to feed her. Scarlett took longer than expected to eat, by the time I was done I had 30 minutes until my doctors appointment. I hurried and put Scarlett in her car seat, and ran to go get Sydney, and Sadie. I had to wake them up from there naps so they  both had some good bed head going on. I thought “it’s okay Jeff is just going to take them back home”. So as we are headed out the door I realize Sydney, and Sadie had left there shoes somewhere outside. I had no time to spare, and I knew I needed to get going. Again I thought “it’s okay Jeff is just going to take the girls home”. So off we went, bed head, and no shoes. I knew we were going to be a bit late meeting Jeff, but there was no way to get a hold of him, my phone was dead, and the charger had broke. I still had faith everything would be fine. When I got to the spot Jeff and I had agreed to meet at, to my dismay he was no where to be found. With my time quickly dissolving, I knew I had to just go to the doctors. I had hope that Jeff forgot to meet us here, and just went to the doctors. Now let me just add, any normal person would have just called it a day, and skipped the doctors appointment. Well we live pretty far from my doctors, and there was no way I wanted to re do all of this. So we pull up to the doctors, and to my horror, Jeff is no where to be found. I took a deep breath, and thought through, all the odd looks I would get. There and than I decided “who cares”, and off we went. No shoes, and really good bed head. We walked into the doctors office like we owned the place. I was able to use the offices phone, and give my handsome hubby a call. When he picked up, I knew I could not be mad. He was so sorry. He said he had totally lost track of time, and that he was on his way. Thankfully our knight and shinning armor saved the day, and got there just as my name was called. I have learned to go with the flow, and just try my best. I can look back at this story, and laugh. I truly believe with my attitude, the situation was not that big of a deal. With 3 kids, I know I have to have a good attitude, and find joy in what I have been blessed to be/do!!

Scarlett *Darlin* 1 Month

Where do I even start!! Scarlett you have changed our family for the better. You have such a presence about you. You are totally my old soul. You are so alert, and were smiling on cue at about a month and a half. From day one yu held your head! Constantly you want to look around, and be involved in all things. Your poor tummy has given you some troubles, but I am usually able to calm you down by my voice. Daddy is completely in love with you. You love him just as much. When you sleep you laugh, almost every time. It is the cutest little squeak I have ever heard. So of course your nickname was born “squeaks”. You are so dear to us that a lot of the time we call you Darlin. You have two older sisters that love you oh so much!! Sadie at times will love you too hard at times, but know it is in the best of intention!! Sydney calls you her squeaks, and loves when you give her smiles.   Sadie thinks your pretty great as well. You love baths!! I have never seen a baby who loves baths as much as you! Not only do you love baths, but you love the sound of running water. When I get ready, I put you in your bouncer, and turn on water. You will sit as calm as can be, as long as the water is running. When you eat you click your tongue when you eat, and your latch did not feel right. So I took you to a specialist, and we found out you were a little tongue tied, and your top lip was unable to open all the way. We had to clip under your tongue, and the inside of your top lip. You were such a champ, and only cried for a bit. I was able to nurse you right after, and you calmed right down. You have been a constant joy to our family. We are so blessed to have such a sweet little spirit, join our family!!

Fourth of July

The fourth of July is my favorite holiday. As it should be everyone's! Fireworks, sun, and food. Could it get any better?!? Well this year it actually did get better! My mom came to visit!! Ya, I was pretty desperate for some mom time. She came with presents, and the girls could not have been more thrilled! They were spoiled with her attention, and love. I was spoiled with her cleaning skills! She also got me some much needed cleaning supplies, and a mop! Which means I no longer have to get on my hands and knees to scrub the floor, hip hip hooray! This fourth of July would have been perfect, if baby Scarlett had graced us with her presence. Sadly she did not want a 4th of July Birthday (crazy girl). We got together with the Graff’s, and that is always a blast! Also Jill, Dave, Lex, and Des came to visit! It was so fun hanging out with them. The girls were thrilled to have buddies. Sydney and Sadie even showed them how to get dirty! I apologize to Jill, and Marlyn for the laundry you had to do. Than again my children taught them how to really party, and took off clothes! Not going to lie the fireworks show this year was somewhat lame! Sad I know, but true. We think there was an error, because supposedly this year they spent a ton of money on the show. If they did they got jipped. It was still a blast( get it ) . There is a picture with Sadie, and Papa John. I have THE funniest story. So one morning Sadie wanted to play outside. Well it was really early, and I did not want her to wonder too far. So I did not enforce shoes. So Sydney and I were inside I was cleaning, and Syd was watching a show. Well I went to check on Sadie, and she was no where to be found. I was a bit concerned, but I was sure she could not get too far with no shoes, and it being mid afternoon I knew the asphalt would deter her(or so I thought).  So I looked high, and low. To no avail. I knew that John was over at the mabin working, but I did not see him outside. So I hopped in my car, and was going to do a search of the property. As I drove past the mabin I saw John, and Sadie! So I drove over to grab her. John than explained to me that he had gone inside, to rest just for a minute. He was laying down on the bench in the kitchen, when he was scared near to death by a little 2 yr old demanding to know where grandma was!! Our Sadie had walked from my house to the mabin, bare foot, found the key opened the door, and let herself in!! After Papa informed her Grandma was not there, Sadie than demanded a juice! I was dying when I heard this. Sadie is one smart girl! 

My attempt at getting a picture together! did not happen

Clothes came off shortly after this photo

Summer time fun

This summer we have tried to be as active as we could. Knowing our little family would change for ever, was motivation to keep going. Although we did not do too many exciting things we did a lot of staple fun things. Living in Saint George is fantastic, but the extent of exciting things to do is minimal. I mean the closest thing we have to a zoo is the pet store…you follow. So we went to story time, played with our cousins, the splash pad became our second home, and playing with grandma. I hope that next summer I will be able to make up for this one! 

We Also took lots of showers.....

We wore ourselves out, to the point of bring our pillow and blanket and sprawling in the middle of the floor

like I said so worn out, taking naps in random places

Helped daddy mow our weeds. My husband

is so amazing!

We also played dress up

Our grandma is so awesome she got us a pool!!

Bringing Baby Home

Bringing home Scarlett, I was so excited. I was nervous, but I knew my girls would do well. They have loved her since day 1. We had a lady bring us dinner, and she held Scarlett. She jokingly asked Sydney if she could take home baby Scarlett. Sydneys response to that was “NOOOOOOOO”, she was almost in tears, and after that she stayed very close to Scarlett, and was not the biggest fan of the sweet lady. Jeff and I had a good laugh at that. When the girls wake up the first (first question is if daddy had go work) second question they ask is “where is baby Scarlett”. We usually go, and peak at our sweet sleeping bundle of joy, and to that the girls always giggle, and tell me how cute she is. Sadie is such a good big sister! She always wants to hold her, and is always the first one at her side when she cries. The best thing is when I have to do something I ask the girls to sing to baby Scarlett while I run to do something. They eagerly accept, and sing there favorite song, Twinkle Twinkle Little Star. Life in the Roberts house is exciting to say the least, but there is pure joy. There are those moments when Jeff and I look at each other and silently say with our eyes “what were we thinking”, but than Sadie runs up to us and says “I love you mommy, I love you daddy”, and all the craziness does not matter! Jeff has been such a stud through all this. The first thing he does when he comes home is kiss me, and than he is off to play with Sydney and Sadie. This allows me to have time with Scarlett and to make dinner. I have so many blessings!

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Scarlett Darlene Roberts

    

I thought I was going to have to write a post explaining why I had not had my baby, but I am thrilled to announce I DID have her!!!! Scarlett's original due date was July 12th, but our ultra sound measured her actually due the 9th. With Sadie as early as she came, we expected Scarlett to make her appearance sooner than later. Especially with the little bit of a scare when I had a bit of pre term labor, and was put on moderate bedrest. So I definitely was prepared for her to be early. Well that sure did not happen!!! This pregnancy I was determined to have this baby girl naturally call me crazy I know. I learned about this really neat way of birthing called hypnobirthing ^{I promise it is not as weird as it sounds, Kate Middleton even did it}. The class basically teaches you how to get into a deep state of relaxation. I had found out there were new birthing tubs in the hospital, and I was so set on using one. So Scarlett’s due date came and went! I went to the doctor and my cervix was still very high, but I was dilated. So at that point, I had accepted the fact that this may just be an august baby. Since I was planning naturally I knew inducing would be asking for trouble, also I never got a good feeling about being induced. I had lots of pressure, and contractions. But contractions would come, and go. With how high up my cervix was we were thinking we could have possibly got my due date wrong. I was measuring right on, but we thought maybe she would be a bigger baby. On Saturday the 13th I started getting consistent surges hynpobirthing term for contractions. I was so convinced this was it, I got everything ready. I was really excited because I was able to breath through all the pressure. It was around 3am, and I decided I would attempt to rest until they were too intense. I was actually able to fall somewhat asleep, and when I woke up they were gone!!! So disappointing. At my doctors appointment that week I was at a 3plus/4, but my cervix was still very high. My doctor informed me that they really did not like to go over more than a week. I was so discouraged. I went home, and had a bit of a breakdown. In my heart I was set on doing this naturally, and I knew inducing would basically ruin all of those plans. So instead of continuing to pout, I set into action. I went on a CRAZY 4 wheeler ride my hands are now just beginning not to hurt when pressure is applied to them, I was holding on to the handles that hard, I went on lots of long walks I even ran a ways, and prayed. Although these activities led me to have surges, they would just stop. Jeffs mom was so kind to block out her schedule for the beginning of July, so she could be there when this baby came. Well the beginning of July was quickly ending, and we were fastly approaching the middle. She had a plane ticket to visit Jason & Katelyns family, and I knew this baby needed to come. I had a lady at church tell me about an herb that is suppose to help move things along. So of course I tried it. I don’t know if that is what did it, I think that is what got labor started, but Jeff is not convinced but on July 18th Jeff and I were watching a show, and I started to get surges. Scarlett was moving a ton that night, and so I did not really think anything of them. Well Jeff fell asleep like always and I was left alone with an over anxious mind, and a cell phone stop watch. I realized that these surges were ranging from 2-10 mins apart. So I began the time game, I decided if they were still going when the show was over I would shower. The show ended, and they were STILL going. Trying not to get my hopes up although they could have probably already touched the sky I showered. After the shower they were STILL going. I knew this was it. It was 1 am and my goal was to stay at home until 2 am. So I woke Jeff up, and let him know that this was real, and to get things ready that he wanted to bring he did not believe me. So I was ready to go, but I was just trying to walk/ breath through the surges. Thank goodness we live out in the middle of no where most of my walking was done outside under the full moon with just a t shirt on. I came back inside to make sure Jeff took me seriously. Well he was getting ready but, he was totally doubting this was actually it. I asked if he was about ready, and he said “are you sure, has your water even broke”. Surprisingly I took it in stride, and said yes dear this is it, after he went on to do the dishes. I was getting a tad anxious, and again I asked him if we could leave, he than asked if I put rice down thee drain he obviously did not believe me, what kind of a question was that to ask your wife who was in labor to the question I was greeted with a surge so he received a very dramatic reply that may or may not have included tears at least I did not curse at him. He than decided to get his butt in gear, and got everything in the car. He gave his mom a call, and on the phone he asked if my water had broke, and at that moment I felt a small rush of water. I said it just did. We still had a 15 minute drive to the hospital, and I think he knew we had to GO I could have told him that an hour ago. The seats in Jeff’s car are low, so I had a pillow I had brought for the hospital, and decided to sit on it bad idea. We were driving down the mountain, and I was getting some serious pressure, and I was like oh crap I am going to have this kid in the car. Then I heard an extremely loud sound, and realized that noise was coming from me. I looked down and saw Niagara falls coming out of my pants!! Jeff just laughed, and said “ I guess that was the rest of your water”, all I could think about was how now I would have to use a hospital pillow . At this point I knew we needed to get there ASAP, I could feel her coming. We approached a red light, and Jeff stopped!!!! Ya, I know what was he thinking!! I politely yelled at him to go. When we got to the hospital parking lot Jeff jumped out to help me. Well at this point I was picturing my baby being delivered in the parking lot because I could not walk. Jeff was amazing, and got me to the front door. The doors are loc,ked at night and so we had to call, and they have a camera to see who is coming in. When they saw my pants remember Niagara Falls they knew we were serious. The doors opened, and Jeff went a head of me. Six nurses greeted me, and 1 had a wheelchair. I kindly informed her that I could not sit down, in fear of sitting on my childs head. Oh did I mention walking into the hospital Jeff kept trying to feel the babies head between my legs?! We were ushered into the first room that we came across I am not sure it was even done being cleaned I asked for a room with a tub I was still holding out hope for that tub The nurse was so sweet, and suggested she check me first. She checked me and said I was at a 9 plus, and could start pushing. I could not believe this was actually happening. I was half terrified/ half stoked out of my brains that I DID IT. I really wanted my doctor, and thankfully he is amazing. He got there in record time, even with getting pulled over the doctor on call was great but I love my doctor. At this point the surges were intense, and I was hating having to lie down. This nurse Eva jumped in, she was an angel and made me breath with her. It totally was not hypnobirthing breathing, but at that point I could care less!!! Eva had other patient's to attend to so she slipped out. Well another nurse came to help me, and I begged for Eva back, I told her I did not want her oops I was trying to be nice, but Eva and I had connected. They told me to bare down, and that is what I did. My doctor discovered that my sweet baby was posterior. He let me know I could deliver this way, it would be a tad more work, or he could try and rotate her. I decided to allow him to attempt turn her, basically he was in me wrist deep I am still feeling the after math of that choice almost wishing she had just come out posterior. At that point I was beginning to feel the “ring of fire”, which in fact does not really hurt too bad it is just a tad bit of a burning sensation. I was so ready to have my doctor stop trying to turn her,so I nicely asked him to get his hands out I watched the video, I was not that nice thankfully he was able to get her to turn. Right when she turned she came flying out! It was the coolest thing ever. The euphoria of knowing I had accomplished one of my biggest goals was so thrilling. All these endorphins were running through my body, and I felt such immense love for my sweet little girl. To my doctors disbelief, and the others in the room Scarlett had a true knot in her cord. I was not too shocked, because of how adamant I had been on having her natural. Sydney was posterior as well, and she got stuck in my birth canal due my body not being in full control of the situation. If the knot had tightened at all my sweet baby Scarlett’s air supply would have been cut off resulting in an emergency c section. Also she had the cord around her neck twice. I know I was inspired. I know my Heavenly Father had his hand in this birth. Words will never be able to describe the experience natural birthing was. Scarlett was so aware, and latched right on. With Sydney and Sadie due to the medication they both were a little out of it. Scarlett was the total opposite. I know I sounded like a crazy woman the first time I held my sweet babe, but my emotions had hit the roof. I just sobbed tears of joy. It was such a beautiful miracle. Another really neat thing was one of my nurses actually helped deliver Scott. Scarlett was such a calm baby she did not go to the nursery once. She slept all night, and had no problem filling her diapers, The spirit in the room will be something that Jeff and I will always hold close to our hearts. I could not have done it without Jeff he truly kept me calm, and was my biggest fan. Also Jeffs step mom Lee Ann was there, and it was so comforting having her there. She has been so supportive of my descion of natural birthing, just to have her presence in the room and hear her encouraging words, and seeing her beautiful face kept me going. We are so blessed to have her in our family! From the time we got to the hospital to the time I delivered Scarlett, it was just 27 minutes!! Jeff and I only stayed at the hospital for 18 hours! It was perfect. Scarlett Darlene is perfect, and our family could not be any happier with our newest addition. 

 

 the knot in the cord!!